Today i feel a bit sentimental and confused. I feel ike I am at a stage in my life in wich i am very restless and have to make other choices. I guess I gave been 'eightteen' long enough and have to admit for myself that I am growing older and wiser, it's just that...I don't know wich way to go with y life. I guess it must be 'good old' midlife crisis... i know that i can't go on like this forever and that i am not staying young forever. I do not know what to do at his age and my feelings have changed forever also i think. Most of the times i just feel scared, have these 'attacks' of fear and anxiety. More tomorrow sweeties...