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Hello ya'all, my name is Zohra. Zohra is a dutch' Transgendered Lady, living in the big city of Rotterdam. I am 32 yrs of age and i try to do my best to be as happy as i can, though it is not always possible. Anyway, via this log I want to inform you about the 'Transgenderlife' and what it means to be a T*-girl. 'T*-girl' is a collective word for everything that has to do with Transvestism, Transgenderism, Transsexuality and Crossdressing.
My life is not always dramatic, even very exiting sometimes. I want you to lay back and enjoy my daily journal, a s it will be shocking to you sometimes, but also very funny and sweet.
Enjoy 'Zohra's Tgirl Spot'
I also have an official website, called 'Girl Interrupted' Please feel free to visit it by clicking the little banner below...
Yes, I am suffering from BIPOLAR DISORDER also... sometimes it's fun being BIPOLAR but sometimes it is HELL also... i just gotta have to accept the fact I am Manic Depressive, because it is just the way I am. My 'illness' brings me in hilaric situations sometimes and i have absolutely no control over my life. That makes it exiting sometimes.
Please read the little poem i wrote about it:
' There is no in between'
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While hope and despare are mingled
and happiness and fear are jingled
my inner mind will seek for peace
to enter the storm again...
So paradise and hell
are the only ones to tell
there is no super-ballance
in this bipolarity...
Insanity and devinity
are the most common perspectives
in the bipolar existancy...
thus agony and ecstacy
are my eternal share...
There is no in between
'Zohra'
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Thursday, March 18, 2004
Not much going on right now i guess...
In a blur...
I feel like I am living in a blur. All the things that interested me so far seem to be uninteresting nowadays. I guess i must be at crisis but that crisis lasts for years now already. And i don't know what is missing in my life and why i feel so restless. Sometimes i think i've done it all and hope to 'the light' goes out. Fed up with everything and all.. but we must go on. For what? We don't know... guess for ourselves?
Posted at 06:15 am by Zohra
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
Entryless for the coming days...
Hello there,
I am going to let you know that there will be no new entries for the coming days. The weather is beautiful and i want to enjoy the weather better in stead of sitting behind my pc all day long. The cold and dark winterdays are gone, long live springtime.... it always makes me feel much happier and energetic. So I am going to enjoy the outdoors now and hope to see you soon here again.
Love,
Zohra
Posted at 04:54 pm by Zohra
Monday, March 15, 2004
Confused and melancholical!!!
Sentimental confusion...
Today i feel a bit sentimental and confused. I feel ike I am at a stage in my life in wich i am very restless and have to make other choices. I guess I gave been 'eightteen' long enough and have to admit for myself that I am growing older and wiser, it's just that...I don't know wich way to go with y life. I guess it must be 'good old' midlife crisis... i know that i can't go on like this forever and that i am not staying young forever. I do not know what to do at his age and my feelings have changed forever also i think. Most of the times i just feel scared, have these 'attacks' of fear and anxiety. More tomorrow sweeties...
Posted at 07:28 pm by Zohra
Sunday, March 14, 2004
I'll never drink again...
...is what i keep telling myself after a wild night out on da town... yesterday i promised to talk about last sarurday, but no energy today... tooo much 4 Roses!!!!
Posted at 04:14 pm by Zohra
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Ready 4 a night on da town!!!!!
Domestic issues !
This evening I have an appointment with a married transgender 'man'. Tonight 'she' has the opportunity to go out as a T*girl because da wife is out of town for a couple of days and now we are gonna meet. She asked me to do her make-up because she ain't very good at it and has no time t develope her 'make-up-skills' just as I can. I am more then willing to help her, because an evening like this means the world to e person like her. Married T*-girls can never be themselves aso when hey have the opportunity to 'show off' their femininity, they take the chance and my heart opens when i am able to help them. I am glad i never had to do anything secretly and was always able to be who i wanted to be in the sense of not having to lie about myself in a relationship. Anyway, I am glad the weekend started again... , 'mommie's ready 4 a night on da town!!!!!'
I'll tell all about it tomorrow....
P.S.: Whatcha think about da pic above???Posted at 11:32 am by Zohra
Posted at 12:25 am by Zohra
Friday, March 12, 2004
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In the beginning, there was...
OK yo all...... please be patient with me, I am very new at this right? Give this girl some credit cuz' she has to learn about this shit still. Anyway, helloooooooo HERE I AM!!! Zohra is the biggest Tgirl in the world (I guess???) cuz' I am 6',8" tall and i weigh around 270lbs. That can cause me some trouble when I am walking on 'High heels'. Ok, High Heels are out of the wuestion, cuz i am too fuckin' big for that. So i walk on little army boots all of the time. What the fuck do you care about my army boots? nothing at all, but i just wanted to tell you about my sweet, 'always trustworthy' army boots. They never cause me pain, they never hurt my toes and keep me feeling 'comfortable' all the time...
So, what's there to talk about? A lot, let's see... Hmmmzzz... ehm? My love life? Naaaaa not interesting. there is NO love in my life, just LUST!. Actually, from when I was a little 'gal' I used to dream about my beautiful dream man, you know that famous actor from the movies. But. would he like a 'cock in a frock'? Who knows? There are plenty of those 'dirty little men' around. But then again, it should be all about sex. Cuz' that's what it's all about in life. right? ;-) NOOOO!!!! There MUST be love somehow... actually, i found myself a great guy, he lives in The United Arabic Emirates, I will keep his name secret for now, until he gives me the permission to share it openly. I must respect his wish for privacy ofcourse. Anyway, I know this guy now for a little more then just a week and every day our 'relationship' gets more intense and passionate. We make 'wild love' over the internet, yes I guess I am a cyberslut.. now in REAL LIFE? Ok... let's have it!
Ok, let's get serious now... i really feel very comfortable with this man. And i guess I already love him now, for as far it is possible to 'love' someone you know for only a week! Let's see what will happen when we get to know eachother, but... no man ever told me such romantic words as he gave to me... and I will cherish them forever in my heart.
OK, this is my first BLOG... will you blog with me soon?
Please leave me a message, so i am not putting all this crap on the internet just for nothing ok?
Love,
Zohra
Posted at 11:38 pm by Zohra
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